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In the few months I’ve been modding at fuckyeahasexual and touring ace Tumblr, there’s been a very. Steady. Stream of info that detail horrifically abusive situations and overall poor mental unhealth. Two a week in the inbox if I’m lucky, usually around seven-ten.

And there’s been so many, I can officially categorize all 500+ of these kinds of asks and submissions into an extensive bulletlist of Why Asexual Exclusionary Radicalism Is Incredibly Toxic And Shitty;

Coming Out To Family, Friends, And Employers

• “My parents keep telling me that I’m something else, and it’s making me doubt my sense of judgement, not just about my sexual identity, but also about everything in general.”
• “My family, friends, and co-workers keep referring to me as an inanimate object in a manner that’s clearly meant to humiliate and devastate me. Nothing I say will get them to stop.”
• “My parents vocally/bodily forced me to undergo medical examinations, some of them concerning my sexual organs, many of them concerning blood tests and other trauma-centric procedures.”
• “My family is intervening with my private life by changing my schedule to include exercise, socialization, friend influences, and whatever they think can ‘change’ me.”
• “My friends/co-workers no longer respect my bodily boundaries when I came out to them, because they no longer see me as someone who should be respected. They regularly touch, fondle, grope, and prod me without permission, and/or verbally harass me, and don’t take my objections seriously.”
• “My family, friends, and co-workers no longer just harass me, but also anyone I’m currently dating because they view my significant other as pathetic, underserved, or even being abused.”

First Few Days Of Dating

• “My date got irrationally angry and confrontational when I came out to them, in a manner that made me fearful.” (SO many of these.)
• “My date immediately lost any respect they had for my boundaries, no longer asked for consent, and {tried to} force themselves upon me.” (A lot of these, too)
• “My date tried to verbally circumvent any boundaries and issues I confessed to, and it made me feel like I was in danger.”
• “I didn’t come out to my date at first, and when they found out, they radically changed their behavior in an attempt to control and manipulate our new relationship to their benefit.”

Long-Term Relationships

• “My partner has forcefully and radically changed our long-term relationship after finding out about my asexuality, and I’m now trapped and controlled in a way that I wasn’t before.”
• “My partner broke up with me/is fighting with me because of my asexuality, and trying to make it seem like I’m hurting them. It’s made me doubt myself and my ability to trust my own intentions.”
• “My partner is slowly changing from what was once supportive of my asexuality, and I’m wondering when I have the right to be worried and when I’d be overreacting. I’m aware of the worst case scenario, but I also worry that I’m being selfish and childish – which are things I’ve been told all throughout my asexual experience.”

Self-Care And Self Development

• “I don’t trust my ability to say either yes or no in sexual situations, and this has extended to my life in general. I don’t feel comfortable in my ability to self-determinate.”
• “The lack of authority, definition, and schooling of the concept of asexuality has made me very uncomfortable with what I think I am, and that uncertainty haunts me every waking moment.”
• “I think it’s too late/too early to tell if I’m asexual, but the longer I hesitate, the worse my mental health and emotional wellbeing gets. I’m effectively stuck.”
• “I see no benefit in coming out, or even identifying as asexual. There’s no positivity, role models, or supportive community for what I consider a big and scary part of my overall identity.”
• “I think this was sexual abuse, but I’m wondering if I’m just being selfish and childish.”
• “I think I was treated badly by my parents/friends/partner, but I’m wondering if I’m just being selfish and childish.”
• “I want to believe that I’m deserving of equal freedom and human respect paid to other, not asexual people, but people tell me I’m being selfish and childish.”
• “No one encourages this part of me. And that makes me feel forgotten and abandoned in general.”

Shut the fuck up about your petty beef with tumblr bloggers and youtubers and Archie comics or whatever. I literally do not care, I can’t care. I see these messages every goddamn day – this post was written and drafted a month ago, and I very easily compiled most of this bulletpoint list from scratch, just by eyeing what I see in the askbox and what comes across my dash. 

‘Ace discourse’ anger is empty and so meaningless. This is what I see by being part of this one 17k follow asexual ask blog for maybe half a year. I am so Done with all the faux rage posts and all the false positivity about how it’s ok to NOT be ace and all the acephobia that falls perfectly in line with the gaslighting typical of acephobia-101 while also having the audacity to claim it not so.

This is what’s real and I want to bleed it into your goddamn eyes.

Reblogging this again, for obvious reasons

THANK YOU. I hate that his happens, I hate that I’ve lived through about half of it, and I really hate that anyone else had to live through any of it … but at least I’m not alone, and neither are they.

And let’s not pretend that most anti-ace posts reek of ableism and witch hunting.

A sizeable chunk of the autistic community is asexual. While the ace community is not majorly autistic, the ace community has the highest percentage of people who are autistic.

And let’s not pretend that most of these posts that show homophobic ace behavior have no name tied to them, no way to find if the person has apologized, how young they are, how long ago they said it, etc. Half the time you can’t even see if they tagged their post. It reeks of a witch hunt to find the few bad apples in a community to try and sabotage the reputation of the majority of the community. Lets not pretend that anti-sjws haven’t done the same thing for years.

So if you think the ‘ace discourse’ holds any merit, fuck you.

oh my god I am so grateful for the term “false positivity,” because that’s such a common thing in what i think of as terfjacent discourse.

(That’s all the general “discourse” that is against any segment of the QUILTBAG, all of which seems to derive straight from terf arguments and rhetorical strategies.)

Specifically I’ve really struggled with the “false positivity” posts that target bi women and very subtly pressure them to re-identify as lesbians. Because it’s framed as being SO positive and supportive.

And because there’s a very obvious iron fist beneath the metaphorical velvet glove – it’s made obvious that if you question it, there’s an “imagine hating lesbians this much” pile-on just waiting.

For all the people going on about being the “special snowflake sexuality” or “you guys have no problems”. This is asexual awareness week.

Be damn aware.

A lot of the relationship-centered points in the original post are why I’m afraid to tell my boyfriend I’m ace.