honestly being high functioning mentally ill is the worst because i know that my thoughts are irrational! i know my reactions are unhelpful and immature! i know i’m being a little shit! i know!! and i can’t! stop! fucking! doing! it!!!

Depression-Busting Exercise Tips For People Too Depressed To Exercise – The Establishment

221beemine:

stepfordgeek:

rawraceli:

blackraincloud:

unbossed:

star-anise:

Oh hey look, something that ISN’T TOTAL FUCKING BULLSHIT 😀

… Step 1. Realize that you should exercise. Step 2 ? Step 3. HEALTH!

When you’re depressed, that question mark can be a barely navigable labyrinth of garbage fires fueled by physical and mental exhaustion, self-loathing, defeat, and frustration. The last time I found myself trying to hack through that mess during a particularly dark period, I started to come up with my own list of bare-bones, practical tips to help me face the idea of moving again. Now I’m sharing them, in case they might help someone else in a similar position. I stress the word “might.” If you’re depressed, the last thing you need is another a-hole telling you what you should do. But if you’re looking for somewhere to start, I’ve been there too.

First heading? “You don’t have to exercise.” I love this entire piece. It’s going on facebook, that’s how much I love it. A+

“The perfect body is a breathing one. Anything that serves those ends is worth considering. Everything else is noise.”

@221beemine

“Most of these training tips and listicles read like they came from people who have faced very little adversity in their lives, and who think that their own health is entirely the product of their own hard work.”

fucking instant reblog

Anxiety: THIS IS TOO MUCH!!!!

Me: What is too much?

Anxiety: THIS

Me: I am literally sitting at home doing nothing. My only obligation this evening is to take out the trash. Work went well today. What exactly is the problem????

Anxiety: EVERYTHING IS HAPPENING ALL AT ONCE

Me: But nothing is happening?

Anxiety: TOO MUCH

australian-government:

i’m so chill for someone who has severe anxiety

bratprincess2482:

re-ven-ge:

kaitlynpossible:

Anxiety.

this is exactly what social anxiety is like, and it’s not fun at all.

Anxiety is a bitch.

Source: poetrygian

Hallucinations/Dreams and Sleep Paralysis

Ugh, really not a good day
I woke up at 4am this morning and couldn’t get back to sleep for an hour.
And I’m still wiped cos I only managed to dose between then and 8:30 when my alarm went off.
I then got sort of trapped in what I assume was sleep paralysis, cos I was awake. I know I was awake.
But I had these really vivid dreams/hallucinations and I could feel them and they felt real.
One was that I was sharing a room with several other people at a school and I could hear them talking and I had to help the teacher but I couldn’t move.
And then another was a damp Samoyed dog came in and jumped on my bed. I may have shouted in my sleep, but I know I at least felt myself say, “No, you’re not allowed on the bed” and it got off.
I could feel my bed move as the dog got on and got off and I could feel it’s fur on my hand, which was damp but not soaking wet.
I had so many of these horribly real dream/hallucinations and I feel dreadful and I’m exhausted and I wanted to go to work today but I couldn’t and now I feel awful and I want to dig my nails into my skin and I want to cry and I hate this.
I feel so disorientated like I’ve been spinning for too long and my brain needs aligning again, but I can’t.
I really can’t do it today
Fuck.