For that ‘solid answers’ thingy: 2, 4, 7, 11, 19, 20, 24, 32, 43, 61, 74, 79, 82, 87, 95, 99 :)

tastyfishistasty:

Thank you ever so much for asking, Bonny! I had great fun answering both times! You’re amazing and lovely.

Seriously Tumblr, you are the worst. Thank the maker I thought to copy it, just in case.

2)If you could meet anyone in the world who would it be?
Assuming they have to be alive and real, Ian McKellen, because he is amazing and an inspiration.

4) What do you think about most?
Currently, Dragon Age, as I am a littttle obsessed.

7) What’s your strangest talent?
I have no idea, maybe my surprising flexibility for such a fat lady?

11) Do you have any strange phobias?
Not necessarily all that strange, but being trapped and crushed in crowds and lifts. I’m also terrified of mould.

19) What does your URL mean?
That the fish which has been described as delicious is indeed that tasty. Aka: absolutely nothing, just that I’m terrible at coming up with usernames.

20) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?
Weakness: Self doubt, lack of confidence
Strength: Being able to roll with the punches and come up swinging.

32) What’s the worst place you have ever been to?
Ibiza, I got badly sunburnt, it was way too hot and I was bored out of my mind.

43) Do you have any nicknames?
You can probably figure out my name from these; Zo, Z-Cow, Twedders, Squirtle-Pie, Scrappit and occasionally Zee.

61) Are you wearing socks right now?
I haven’t worn any socks all day!

74) What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?
Biffy Clyro – “Spanish Radio”

79) What’s your favourite word?
Douchecanoe! I am aware it is not a real word…

87) What is your current desktop picture?
Home: Hawkeye asleep in his nest
Work: Two corgi puppies :3
Phone: My f!warden Cousland from DA:O

95) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?
New Zealand!!

99) If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?
Stop being cruel to each other and leave everyone to their own damn business.

Please don’t read this. I just needed to write it out. I hope the read more works.

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I hope the read more worked and if it didn’t then please accept my apologies, I don’t wanna offload onto anyone except tumblr, so please go ahead and skip this.

That’s what I get for using the mobile app.

I wanna say I’m angry or pissed off or at least that I’m really cross right now, but I’m just tired and very little else.
I just. I don’t wanna deal with this, but that’s something I need to do cos it’s fucking me up on the inside. (Like physically, not like emotionally. All my emotions come out through my stomach and this is giving me cramps the size of France)

I feel like anything I say right now, here and actually in person would be so over dramatic, but I can’t really think of any other way to describe how… fed-up(?) I am. It’s not like it’s anything new or like it’s something especially awful that’s happened. It’s just that I’ve let things go unchecked for so long and I don’t know how to stop this without destroying everything.

And destroying everything is starting to look darn attractive.

I wanna say I feel betrayed or that I feel taken for granted or like no one cares how I feel, but that’s all bull shit.
I know that my mum will always be on my side no matter what happens and I’m so thankful for her. I know my sister is always just a Skype away and that even though I can’t hug her physically, that she’s always there for me too. Hell, any of my relatives would be there for me if I asked, but again, that feels like way way way over dramatic.

I know who else would be there for me if I asked, but I feel like I’ve missed this happening to them and that I don’t deserve their help. Though, they do seem to be in a better state than me!

Which is kinda my own fault. I need to let it go or deal with it. I know that, but I can’t. won’t. don’t fucking want to. But then, I want this to go away for the right reasons and not cos I’ve distracted my self with cake and top gear.

Hopefully anyone reading this has given up by now, but fuuuck! I just can’t believe it. I can’t believe that I’ve done all this and I’m worth so little.

HOW FUCKING DARE YOU???

and I said I wasn’t cross.

I’m gonna go… do something else now. I just can’t right now. I just can’t.

Fuck